Monday, April 12, 2010
Choosing post #1
I know I have written about this before, but here it goes again. I plan at least one other post about choosing.
a quote from John O'Donohue from the book Exploring Our Hunger to Belong pg 91 (Paragraph breaks mine)
The Addiction of Distraction
"Choice becomes an invitation to commitment. When you commit, you deepen presence. Though your choice narrows the range of possibility now open to you, it increases the intensity of the chosen possibility. New dimensions of the chosen path reveal themselves; a new path opens inwards to depth and outwards to new horizons. You choice has freed your longing from dispersing itself over a whole range of surface.
When we avoid choice we often become victims of distraction. Like the butterfly we flit from one flower to the next, delightfully seduced by its perfume and color. We remain secretly addicted to the temporary satisfaction and pleasure of immediacy."
"When we choose a definite path or partner, we leave the endless array of beckoning surface. We go below the facade of repetition and risk the danger of encounter, challenge and responsibility. When you choose with discernment, integrity and passion, you submit yourself to the slow and unglamourous miracle of change."
I love this quote. I have been addicted to distraction for a year now. Hopping from one house viewing to another. Hopping from Charlestown, Nelson, Walpole NH, to Vermont to Northfield, Mass, to the entire length and width of Cape Cod. I have avoided the commitment of choice. I have kept on the surface, enticed by the glitter of the next one and the next one. Like eating a container of Pringles. Over-stuffing myself with options. And driving myself to near madness and breakdown through the process.
I like the way O'Donohue speaks of the "unglamourous micacle of change." It does feel unglamourous to buy a house with ants and shoddy appliances and ragged roof. It is hard to see beyond these immediate needs to what it will be after sprucing up. It is not my imagined view of what my new home will/would be.
I have to go cold turkey and get detoxed, end this addiction. Make a choice, any choice, and get on with my life which has been on hold. Fine words but can I carry through?