Thursday, December 04, 2008
I am so touched
Hello, everyone. I am so moved by the beautiful outpouring of love and caring you have all sent to me and my brother in the last two posts. Again, forgive me for not going through and individually answering each response, but know I have read them all and hold them all dear.
A friend asked me if I would be afraid living here alone. No, not afraid, but lonely. I who lived alone for so many years, grew accustomed to living with Mom. My life had a focus, to be a caregiver and to bring brightness to her, in what turned out to be, last year. This was very good for me as I had felt purposeless and useless previous to moving here. Now, there is emptiness and once again I must figure out what my current purpose on this earth might be. I am once again homeless although I can stay here for a time.
At the present moment my purpose is to help myself and my brother make our way through the next two days. Mom will be buried on Friday at ten, Dad's ashes will be in the coffin with her. The graveyard is rather ugly, flat and no trees but Mom hadn't chosen a graveyard and I am not familiar with the local graveyards so here we are. Just my brother and I will be there unless he has some friends who might come.
Again, thank you so much for the warm and loving words and prayers sent flying our way, for me, my brother and Mom on her journey into other realms. Blessings and love, Suki
As someone said in one comment, how lovely that I gave Mom her red heart before her birthday and/or Christmas. She had time to enjoy it in her last days. I gave it to her early on advice of your suggestion, dear blogging friends.
Photo: the river of life flows on.