A group thank you to all who have written about my sister-in-law. I feel so nurtured by your caring. My brother seems to be doing well. N's brother and sister will be arriving today. I bought five bottles of locally made apple wine. Probably way too much. I sit with the sadness and face again the fact that life is impermanent.
Lynn said something about this being a time for me to think about life and death as it relates to my life. I think when someone close to me dies, it does set me to reaffirm the things I love in life and to reassess how I might continue to follow and or/create a new path that will manifest these things I love for me. In my belief there is only this one life for me to live as I am in the present incarnation. I will ponder a bit, make a few lists and hopefully take actions. My first action will be to get a massage next week. Open up the pathways, get the toxins loosened and on the move outward.
Meanwhile I will bake a quiche. Help my brother tidy up a bit and set up a few little "shrines" with flowers, pictures of N, candles and symbols of things she loved.
Photo: apple tree in spring. Now, we are harvesting apples.