I thought of baby crow last night. I got really, really angry. I know this photo shows a crying baby but I liked it and the pictures of angry people I didn't care for. I suppose it doesn't matter what I got angry about specifically. I felt overlooked and ignored by my brother from whom I wanted a piece of information. On his phone I just got the answering machine. Their machine is particularly horrible as it has that disembodied pre-recorded voice, not my brother's voice. He never called me back either.
And the anger swelled up in me so strong. One part of my mind knew the details didn't matter and my thinking mind was blowing them out of proportion and that I just needed to wait until the next day and all would be revealed. It is just that communication is so important to me and I seem to have a history of association with people to whom it does not seem as important. Of course, that would include that I'd like the communication in MY time frame. Jeesh. Get over it Suki. The world does not revolve around you and your time frame.
Still, as this happened in the evening, my adrenaline was pumping and it took me several hours last night to get to sleep. And I did it all to myself in reaction to something not happening in my time frame. I still think my bro could have given me a telephone call to confirm that the package for me had been delivered at his house by mistake. I would have done so for someone. But again, the world, thank goodness, is not populated by a zillion Suki's.
Not to mention I might have compassion for the fact that bro is overburdened and burned out re: SIL.
Still, Baby Crow, I thought of you and your angry time a way back. Many blessings, Suki