Monday, July 15, 2013

“We are like children building a sand castle. We embellish it with beautiful shells, bits of driftwood, and pieces of colored glass. The castle is ours, off limits to others. We’re willing to attack if others threaten to hurt it. Yet despite all our attachment, we know that the tide will inevitably come in and sweep the sand castle away. The trick is to enjoy it fully but without clinging, and when the time comes, let it dissolve back into the sea.”  Pema Chodron

In my head, I feel ready to let the past, the me I was for the last five years, dissolve back into the sea.  The fact that the new people have been using a pneumatic drill out there on the ledge very close to my house is helping me to know I need to get out of here.  

Of course I know this drilling will end at some point.  I dragged my chair down to the room furthest from the drilling.  I can turn on music or the AC to drowned out the noise.  They drilled from early morning till 7:30 pm yesterday.  And today began again at 7:30 am.  I am not fond of hanging out in my bedroom during the day though.

OK.  Enough grumbling.  Somehow I need to get head, heart and body into synchronicity.  Meanwhile the sun is shining after numerous cloudy days.  That;s a blessing.  I have leftover chicken for lunch along with a delicious lentil salad I made yesterday with lemon dressing.  Yum.

12 comments:

sukipoet said...

photo was taken by me in Dennis, Mass. (on Cape Cod)

Lynn Cohen said...

Do you hear the cape calling? I sure do!

Annie said...

Suki, I too feel the need to make a move, yet I stay. Money and lack of motivation stop me, what is stopping you?
Good luck with the noise!
xoxo

Mystic Meandering said...

Wow Suki - Now there's your "sign" from the Universe :) lol - pneumatic drilling for two days! Yes - dissolve that old self/life into the sea ~ ~ ~ The sea is calling to you :)

Kelly M said...

I was stuck in a job that made me unhappy and only finally got the impetus to quit and go back for my teaching certificate because a crazy boss came along and made my days more and more miserable. Now I can thank her and that situation for driving me to the brink of nervous breakdown. It really took that to launch me into motion. This drill could be a blessing.

Blue Sky Dreaming said...

How we fill our days is so important and no thanks to neighbors our days can be miserable. Your lunch sounds wonderful...maybe a trip into town or a call out to real estate agents? You will move when you're ready!

Cris, Oregon Artist said...

Lovely photo. We only have so long to live this life why be miserable? You. can. do. it!

Umā said...

Oh dear, that much noise pollution sounds miserable, especially at this beautiful time of year. It does seem like a "last straw" kind of sign though...

kj said...

When is the moment when exploration becomes decision? I've found that the very second before the decision the very information needed is there. Not a moment before, and not a moment after.

Maybe the combination of a horrendously loud pneumatic drill and a pent up impulsivity will be that moment :-)

I plan to grin back at you one day, suki. Quite a shared grin it will be

xoxo
kj

Kim Andersen said...

that would drive me nuts!

soulbrush said...

I would be totally carzy by now- has it ended yet? Run Suki run.

sukipoet said...

yesterday they dynamited the ledge. not sure what happens next.