Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Chakra #5 The throat chakra

This chakra is called Vishuddha: purity. It represents opening your voice, singing your truth. The emotion is faith and understanding. The verb is "I speak and I am heard." The color is sky blue. The gem is turquoise and the power creativity. The elephant, lion and bull are animals associated with this chakra. This two page spread is not finished and feels kind of bland to me right now.

When I close the page, the heart chakra page partially covers over the throat chakra page, leaving just this edge. I like that.

To me, speaking out and speaking my truth does not mean saying just anything that comes into my mind. My mind is very active and has many thoughts, most of them best left inside my mind so as not to cause harm to myself and others.

Here is a quote I read on Teri's blog today. "Before you speak, ask yourself: is it kind, is it true, is it necessary, does it improve on the silence?" Shirdi Sai Baba

So, how do I speak my truth? In the way I live my life, in my "art," in the way I listen to others, by keeping in mind the spiritual truths that may see life and others in a different way than the thinking/emotional truth may. I can speak my truth by understanding that my reaction to someone else's mean words can be put on hold. To let the truth of the situation rise forth. To not feed into the projection.

Recently someone said some very cruel things to me about myself. My reaction was to run away as fast as I could. But if I ran I would be putting a lot of stress on myself. Instead, I prayed, I practiced kind speech alone in my room, I probed into the truth as I saw it. When the time came to speak aloud to this person I spoke what I consider to be gentle words. I am not a saint. The person's earlier words to me hurt still. That this person should see me as they did is so painful. But that is not something I have control over. I only have control over my self and the words I speak.

But the event has set me into the "doldrums," to use Kimmie's word. My heart is wounded, yet again. But then, that is our journey. The journey of the broken-hearted Warrior. This is not unusual, it is human.

21 comments:

willow said...

I'm sorry to hear someone was so cruel to you, Suki. You're practicing good Karma and it will pay off. I love the criteria "does it improve on the silence?" I'm taking it back to the manor with me today. Thanks for turning a cruel act into a lovely post.

Robin said...

Suki, I, too, am sorry that you have had to endure more pain and sadness..... but, you are a "Warrior" Woman....now, more than ever....and I feel your strength grow with every post and every work of art you create.
I see the difference - I hear the difference. I am taking your words to heart for myself as well... and last, I ADORE the fact your Heart Chakra page overlaps the Throat one.....so perfect...

Sending you and Bibbity hugs and love on a HOT (yes, H-O-T) day in San Francisco!

♥ Robin ♥

~Babs said...

I was amazed reading that someone could think of you as evil. Suki,,,,evil? never in a million years!
That's a wonderful blue in the works, and I love the overlapping too.
Also a good reminder that WE are in complete control of all the WE say. I needed that reminder, thanks.

I've read some of Greg Isles too, and enjoyed them.

Anyes said...

So wise of you, Suki not to have answered right away , I still have to learn to NOT speak when I get hurt...
Shirdi Sai Baba's words on this post will help me.
Thank you

Cris, Artist in Oregon said...

Sorry you had be subjected to this rude person. When a person opens their mouth they remove all doubt about what they are. This person is a jerk. But it is always wise to cool down and then use wise, calm words back. You did the right thing. But I know it will smart for awhile but forgive them for yourself and move on. I HOPE you dont have to see this person all the time.

studio lolo said...

That hurts to read Suki. I could never imagine you as evel. Quite the opposite. You're always coming from a place of kindness.

I always like to think of my intentions before I say or write anything. It helps alot, but sometimes I do wish I could take words back. No matter how kind we try to be, often times there will be a person even more sensitive than ourselves and still feel the sting of something not meant as harmful.

I'm in a tough place myself this week, but from self-inflicted wounds that run deep. I need to work on loving kindness for myself. I have a lot of inner work to do.

I love the journal pages. It's nice that you took your hurt to make something beautiful to share.
I hope you can avoid this toxic person as much as possible. The best thing to do is to send them loving thoughts and peace.

Hugs to you and Bibs♥

m. heart said...

It must be something in the air this season, I'm in an uncomfortable spot myself.

Don't let other people judge you, that's my advice. Recently I heard someone say, "Don't worry about what others are thinking of you. Worry about what you're thinking of them." You can only control your own thoughts and opinions and emotional reactions, not those of others. It's futile to try.

Now I just have to take my own advice.

soulbrush said...

I have always believed that if you can't say something kind then just shut up! I feel so sad that someone could be so cruel to you, as you are such a kindhearted soul,so i wish upon them a awful stimach ache for 3 days- so there---after all actions speak louder than words...!!

Annie said...

I love this Suki, I love the blue and the elephant. I am so sorry that someone caused you pain and I am sure it was not deserved! Sending lots of love and many hugs. xoxo

Lisa at Greenbow said...

I hate that someone was mean to you Suki. Let it go. I wish you peace. I send you Big Hugs...

kj said...

i have to say i am touched as much by your comments here as i am by your post. such gentle comments to you, suki, because you are a gentle woman.

i like the way you took your time to respond to mr or ms. meanie. but you know what? sometimes i think a punch in the nose or a swipe in the ego is the most cosmically appropriate response. and sometimes i like a simple 'fuck you!' (sorry... :)

you are a kind soul, suki. any one who knows you knows that.

love
kj

Lynn said...

I'm glad your silent alone time practice brought you to a better place. I'm sorry there are souls in this world who do not think before they speak and hurt others. Shame on them!
I hope your beautiful art making brings you to a place of inner peace and allows you to leave the hurt behind...bury it in a hole in the back yard perhaps...as it does not belong to you but to the one who uttered those words.

Kim said...

Suki, I am so sorry you are dealing with this person who obviously has a lot of struggles of his/her own to contend with. It seems to me that speaking the truth is not always the right answer, it is knowing the truth that really matters (and being honest with yourself). Many times when people hurt someone else it is because they have their own issues they don't want to face, so often I will respond with, "I feel sorry for you." and leave it at that. Doing this doesn't mean their words were not hurtful, but it just might give them a bit to think about themselves.

Creating out your emotions was the right thing to do. Somehow that is just balm for the soul. I love your chakra journal. It is truly healing.

chewy said...

Usually I associate HAM with a pig. I like your blue elephant. I'm sure you'll fill up the page and feel better about it. One person's opinion is outweighed by all the others who love you as you are.

Yoli said...

I second Robin and Willow. I am sorry you had to deal with such ignorance.

kikipotamus said...

I am so pleased that you have the wisdom to know that his impression of you is something you have no control over. I have also spoken cruelly in the past to someone, and each time it was completely about ME and the pain I was in...how lost I was to myself. This person who spoke cruelly to you is lost and in pain. I will pray for him, too.

marianne said...

I wonder who could ever say such cruel things to you and intentionally hurt you....... maybe this says more about that person then about you.....
I admire you that you stay in your own kindness dear!
Love that blue page!

Hugs
>M<

word veri: bullys

Suki get away from them.....

Blue Sky Dreaming said...

I am sorry for this situation...you have support for your highest good and I believe your careful words and understanding of what is true will work for you with good results. Good wishes from me!

...louciao... said...

I love it that you put HAH on your throat chakra page. We used to do an exercise at yoga class where we'd swing our arms and go "HAH" with a big exhale. I take thyroid meds; definitely issues with not speaking up, not speaking one's truth...though that has certainly changed as I've grown older. One benefit to aging, at least.

It's lovely that your heart chakra page fuels your throat chakra page, prompting you to speak from the heart.

kikipotamus said...

Really? There's a movie called The Black Balloon? I have one called The White Balloon! I think there is also one called The Red Balloon.

Mim said...

I'm just reading this post now and don't have much time to comment but I hear the truth and sadness and other things here.
I hate it when people say mean things! it's just not worth the air that they use, it's hurtful (which is the point I guess) and in my mind makes them look a fool. But of course, I - like you - won't answer back meanly, yet also worry about the mean words...are they true??? I try very hard to be careful with my words and try NOT to be hurtful ever! that's my way of living but it's not everyones. I think you are right when you say that you only have control over you own words and not others.

I agree with Willows comment of turning a cruel act into a lovely post.