Friday, April 30, 2010

No More Words

Looks like I've been creative doesn't it? Two days ago I messed around with these paints, saying I would do a bit each day. But I haven't. I look with such admiration at people who seem to know their place in the world, know what it is they can do even if it is just stamping a date on a library card, not that people do that anymore. I feel so ineffectual, as compared to my previous self who at least imagined she was effectual. Now I dont even have that delusion to get me from here to there. I am not complaining, just stating this somewhat odd position I seem to be in.

From my Zen calendar


Cris, Artist in Oregon said...

You know we all need a purpose in life or we just sit. Like entering our work somewhere..Some kind of club to join to be with people who get you moving. I think the time between winter and Spring is hard on us as we seem so stuck inside and feeling bla. Maybe once it really warms up you will get some feeling of purpose back. Have you totally given up on finding a place to move to?

Robin said...

Chris is dead on.... we all DO need a purpose in life...finding just what it is can be hard....but - you are one creative and strong lady..... and I know you can do it!

I felt the same way as you for most of last year. (You know why.) For me, blogging has made me sit up and take notice of the world around is still by no means perfect, but reconnecting (somewhat) to the world has made me appreciate it all the more.

Still think you should check out volunteering options... even 3 or 4 hours a week would get you out and about and interacting face-to-face more.

Just my 2 cents.....cos' I care...


♥ Robin ♥

Lynn said...

I had artist's block several times during the making of The Garden of Lia Eden. I think you are having Life/Living Block!
I imagine you might be feeling so paralized right now...a bit like a deer in the headlights...needing/having? to move...yet not being able to find the right place yet.
I sure hope this passes for you soon.
I love your art Suki. I wake up to a wonderful piece of it on my bedroom wall each new day and think of you. ;-) Hugs.

Katiejane said...

I know how you feel. There are times in my life when I feel so stagnant that I believe I must smell! :) I usually go on a little trip and that sometimes jump starts my engine. Take off for somewhere, anywhere for a weekend, see what happens.

patti said...

Yes Suki, you need to get yourself out into the world. Either a holiday, a change of residence, or by doing some volunteering out in the community. By doing somthing for others our problems cease to have so much importance (I guarantee it!). We are all struggling in some way and there is lots to do and many people to share energy with out there.

I was like you are now a few years back and The Artist's Way/Blogging jolted me out of that stagnant place. I have never looked back.

Visit Patry Francis' blog. She is a writer too and left 'ten rules for life' there recently. (scroll down to second most recent post) They're great!

Julie said...

Your Zen calendar is awesome!

You know what helps's so easy too. Find a very small, tiny thing that is interesting to look a blade of grass...and paint that. It will get you moving.

I just discovered another fellow blogger who is teaching herself to decorate cakes on cool is that? Maybe you just need a different sort of art to try!!!

Annie said...

Sending you lots of hugs. We all go through the blahs from time to time, it passes. xoxo

Anonymous said...

I get down in the dumps as soon as I don't have a strong purpose. When I was unemployed, it would give me energy the second anyone asked me for a favour. Volunteering at the hospice sure did help me.

Jazminwilss said...

It will nice to do coloring art on the canvas, actually i already have a wonderful canvas painting which is having so many combination colors in to...
Provide some new color painting styles..
Thanks for imparting
Jazmin Wilss