Months ago I drew this picture in my sketchbook of my two opposite selves. On Thursday I looked again at these sketches and wrote the following:
My frugal practical self--left- brained-- helped me do the steps to search for a house, contact Realtor and lawyers, drive to the cape, organize cat sitters and places to stay, drive by homes for sale, choose ones to see, go see them. Sort through the available options.
Due to all of this left-brained activity I found a number of perfectly good houses to buy. This was good work, left-brained, school marm self!
The time when you got in my way though, was in the "go for it" stage. Then, you held up a hand of CAUTION. First with house #1 that I decided to offer on. You said stop and therefore I did not make the offer. I waited a tormented month, decided I would make the offer, and the house was gone.
Then on house #2, you let me make the offer but later held up a hand of "no" to the Purchase and Sales agreement, even though this caused you and others pain.
Oh school marm. I thank you very much for your help in getting me into and through the intricacies of a home search. You did an excellent job, ending up finding me a lovely home. But now I feel you must sit back and go along for the rest of the ride. You can enjoy following the bohemian side of me, the risk taker, the roller coaster rider, the side that went off to San Francisco, the side that plunges into creative activities, the side that plunges into romantic entanglements.
This is a complex job I have set forth for you two sides of me. And you can work together to buy me a home, to fulfill my heart's desire. The bohemian me speaks more quietly, is less frugal than you dear schoolmarm. But she also has much value and love and discernment.
Hand it over to her. You have done your job. Let her do hers. With love. Remember Suki is worth it. She deserves a home.