Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Just one more note
The way I turned myself around from being a slave to clock time and exterior frameworks was I spent an entire year with my clocks unplugged except for the stove clock which I covered over with an index card.
If I had a doctor's appointment or similar I would check the clock on occasion to make sure I made it on time. Often, I'd set a timer to ring when I needed to leave. I grant you I could do this as I lived alone and also worked in the home as opposed to out.
But it was an interesting year of learning to listen to my insides as opposed to outsides. If I was hungry I ate. If I was sleepy I rested. If I felt like a walk, I walked (even if I had planned in my head to write on my novel during that time frame.)
I think this mode of being lead to some creative living, although it also led me away from a mini-type-A drive to publish tons of novels and otherwise be rich and famous.
Now I do use clocks but am not a slave to them. I think I can more effectively balance the logical approach to time (clocks, grids, schedules etc) with a more intuitive approach that comes from the inside. I can flow from one to the other as needed. I can be flexible. Or at least I think so, others may have a different opinion.