About a month ago I got a massage from a woman I had massages from before. She's more of a body worker than a massage therapist and she does a lot of alternative type healing modalities. This is okay with me, I am always interested in new approaches.
So there she was working on my shoulder, when she said, "You were a dog in a past life." What??? I didn't know she "read" past lives and if she had told me she did I probably would have said no thanks, but there it was and that wasn't all.
"And you were tied up to a tree and left." I think she said more but this is all I recall. She also had me call upon my higher power to help me resolve this past life situation. I suddenly saw an angel who flew with me over the world to new and exciting places.
After the massage, I said I didn't believe in past lives but that metaphorically I could see this as myself because I do feel tied and restricted or limited in some way. Also I often feel a choking in my throat. "No," she said. This was literally a past life.
There we differed.
I have thought about this metaphor often since then. When I practice yoga, sometimes I get a choking in my throat and a release of tension. Also, I do feel tied to Mom's house and have not been successful in flying out of here and getting back into life so to speak. There are no visible bonds holding me. They are all emotional/psychological (I guess). I do not want to remain here, I am doing little of any worth, just reading and watching DVD's, yet I can't seem to cannonball myself into a new me.
I almost did a few weeks ago, and then I retreated back into my doghouse. I am tempted to "blame" my passivity on my cats. I cannot just take off in my car on an adventure to see what turns up for myself. I must be here to tend to my cats. I love them of course. And it is not right to blame my behavior on them. Or on any exterior cause.
This is just a look into my mind at the moment. Nothing much to be done except in my own way and own time. I didnt like hearing this image (although the dog above is a cutie) but it has given me pause. Bow wow.