Been avoiding writing about this lest I be boring, but Marianne kindly asked what was happening and I feel all you kind folks deserve an update. I did not buy the house. I did not lose a 5 figure sum of money, whew! I don't know why I backed out. Fear? Cowardice? Wanting to stay an irresponsible child?
I could probably go on and on analyzing this but in a sense, who cares? I don't mean that in a negative way. I just mean, goodness Suki there are folks out there in much pain and in traumatic circumstances and you are just dealing with trying to buy a house.
I am pretty sure I am learning things about myself. I do know I want to unpack my boxes, hang all the artworks I have bought and collected just for my new house, get settled in and so forth. I do not want to stay here on the farm. The other day I walked around the property and talked to Mom and Dad. I told them I love it here, it is beautiful and I thanked them for my time here.
But I told them I needed to move on. Thanks to all who sent such wonderful thoughts and advice around my dilemma. I appreciate all the comments and have read them a number of times. Soon....soon.
Paintings are ATC sized watercolors done last week